The Big Picture

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart;
And lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all they ways acknowledge him,
and he shall direct thy paths.
-Proverbs 3:5-6

It's funny how you can read a scripture over and over again, but only on a certain day it will strike you like it never has before. It can either be because you've looked at it in a completely different way, or because all the sudden it is applicable to exactly what you are going through.
This scripture is powerful to me right now,because I needed to hear it.

I think now is the time of my life where I need to start planning big things for the future. I used to think I knew exactly how these college years would play out and it's funny because I get the sense that Heavenly Father throws me some challenges and changes to humble me a bit.

Every year I have an idea of what my life will be like, only for that "perfect" idea to be destroyed and molded into something I never thought it would be. Some days it frightens me that things wont turn out how I want them to, a day like today for example. This is when a comforting thought of trusting the Lord comes in handy, and a giant humility stick comes and whacks me on the head and I realize I shouldn't lean to my own understanding. The Lord sees the grand scheme of things. He knows what will make me truly happy and how everything will play out.

We are in his hands. Because of that we shouldn't have fear but instead we should be extremely comforted. I once heard a quote suggesting that fear hurts the Lord. Having fear is like saying, "Heavenly Father, I don't trust you. I don't trust you to take care of me."

Our strength comes from trust in the Lord. Let him mold our lives so that they will be the best they can be.

Harmony

Two chocolate cupcakes. So delicious. So bad for me. I'm trying to break the habit. But when I eat one sweet, before my stomach tells me it's a bad idea to go for another one I've already scarfed down the second. Then my stomach is really upset. I just wish it would speak up earlier.
Other than the miscommunication between my mouth and my stomach things are in harmony in my life.
Well sort of...
I only mean that I can't complain about anything in my life right now. I don't know if that constitutes as harmony, but it sure does mean that life is good.

Here's why:
I have wonderful roommates. I love them [and I love their clothes]. And I couldn't ask for a better "sleepmate."

I'm dating the most patient and self-less boy ever who I have so much fun with.

Even though I'm at school and "on my own" I still have a wonderful mother that I can always turn to. I can ask her anything from giving me an honest opinion on my work or ask her how to get rid of fruit flies.

I can go and work out for free at the BYU gym. Now I have no excuse not to go.

My classes are not extremely difficult. I have fun classes like basketball, Latin dance, and photography.

Although I don't like my short hair anymore, I am comforted that my hair indeed does grow fast and it should be "long" be the end of the semester.

I live really close to campus and it takes no time to walk there.

I'm on an intramural soccer team, and I'll finally get to play a sport I know how to play.

I'm finally done with my advertising application, and I had the amazing help of my cousin [Cambell] on my acceptance video. [Now I'll I have to do is wait and see if I got in.]

And I'm about to go watch my boy's intramural football team dominate...

Life in Utah [so far]

This is for Li-Sha. She is the one that keeps telling me I need to make a blog post since I created my blog site forever ago and never posted anything on it. So this is for you Li-Sha, all for you. :)

Well school has started and now that I'm through with my advertising application I can finally get into the swing of things here. I have pretty easy classes, and live close to campus, so this semester should be a breeze...hopefully.

Lately I've been obsessed with playing football and basketball, probably because Aaron - the goober that I'm dating - has brainwashed me, but don't worry soccer is still number one in my heart. I'm actually taking a beginning basketball class, which Aaron swore would be a class filled with mostly girls. He was wrong. But it's alright, I really don't mind that all the boys in my class have all played basketball before and should really be in the intermediate class. And that was not sarcasm, I really don't mind.

But while I've been at school I've realized one thing: I love walking to class with my iPod in. I forgot how much I love it. It's like I'm in a movie or something. I've been tempted so many times to just 'bust a move' or just dance-walk all the way to campus. However, I usually don't suppress the urge to sing along even though no one else can hear my music. Music just gives me a burst of energy during my day. And tomorrow I don't think I'll suppress any desire to dance to the music that no one else will be able to hear.